Protest Fire, Deal-Making Notes, and Trump Whiplash

June 3, 2020

I moved through password panic, hacking fear, company-name frustration, flashbacks, abuse fallout, protest reactions, and deal-minded chatter, then ended the day inside Don Juan and music again.

Wed 3 May

10:45 a.m.

It's sad, but also good to see protests in America because we need to end injustice. I can't stand some of those people the white cops killed. I just wish they didn't murder them. They should all watch that movie American History X.

11:00 a.m.

I made myself Nestomalt, I put in 5 heaping teaspoons. I love it. It's like Horlicks. ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

2:15 p.m.

I'm like 45 kg, but I'll be okay. I'm just 26. I think Jared Kushner is 39 or something, he's lean. He's a cool guy. I'll probably be okay. Charith Seneviratne used to be 42 kg, when he was 20-21 years old. He's 70 something now.

I used to be 40kg, but I took ████████████████████████████████████████████ to get up to 45kg. It was the only thing that worked. I'll probably have to stop skipping meals. I skip meals every day. I often skip breakfast 5 times a week.

I'll probably pay someone, medically trained, to force feed me every 3 hours about 400 calories. So, 8 x 400 is like 3,200 calories. I must be getting 1,500 calories a day or less. I'll probably get paid people to make sure I eat, without excuses, the problem is me.

I don't want to end up a fat f***. So, I'll probably just stay at around 60 kg or 65 like James . I don't want to be a fat f***. I want to look good in a suit. Please G-d, don't let me end up a fat f***. Oh no, no way, not that.

I dunno. Maybe I'll use the dangerous psychiatric drugs that Dr Friedman refused, but Dr Joshua Kua said was okay at 2.5mg every other day. I pumped it up to 5mg every day. I only got up to 45kg. I used 10 or 20mg once, and got up to 55kg.

Sadly, I got salmonella para typhoid and lost around 10 kg. I hate Sri Lankan food. I'll need to set up a barbecue restaurant and brew beer for my own supply and personal demand. I'll gain weight to like 65ish. I think 70 plus, and you're a fat f***. 60 is perfect.

2:30 p.m.

The truth is I'm unhealthy. I need to change. Being severely underweight is a health problem. I think with complex PTSD you have eating disorders like punitive resistance to eating in my case. I'll need to pay people $1,000/month or Rs 185,000/month to always monitor me and make sure I eat.

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5:45 p.m.

I only hate the annoying people in any group. There's pieces of s*** in every group.

11:15 p.m.

So sleepy.

Tap on my window, knock on my door:

https://youtu.be/v5M9QE_FT5c

Wed 3 May

5:30 p.m.

Exhibit 4. Deal Making

Today was a triumph.

I'm making a note here:

HUGE SUCCESS.

It's hard to overstate

My satisfaction.

Cyberspace Command:

"Making Life Better -- and

Safer -- with Innovation"

For the good of all of us.

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But there's no sense crying

Over every back stab.

You just keep on trying

Till you run out of time.

And the Business gets done.

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For the people who are

Still alive.

I'm not even angry.

...

I'm being so sincere right now.

...

Even though Tamir Pardo broke my heart.

And nearly bumped me off too.

And tore my partner deal to pieces.

And threw every piece into a fire.

As they burned it hurt because

I was so happy for Sepio Systems!

Now these better vendors

Make a beautiful line.

And we're out of POCs.

We're signing deals on time.

So I'm glad I got burned.

Think of all the things we learned

For the 33° Mason Jacques, who is:

Now our CFO.

(Note. 33° Bro Norman Vincent Peale will be my pastor next!)

...

Go ahead and leave me.

I think I prefer to stay CEO.

...

Maybe Tamir will find someone else

To help him.

Maybe Connex IT...

THIS WAS A JOKE, HA HA, ALREADY HAPPENED.

...

Anyway this deal is great

It's so ambitious and close

Look at me still talking when there's business to do

When I look out there

It makes me glad I'm not Bentsi

I've projects to be run

There is security research to be done

On the customers who are

Still alive.

And believe me I am still alive

I'm doing business and I'm still alive

I feel FANTASTIC and I'm still alive

Still alive

Still alive

Songwriters: Kirk Franklin

Still Alive lyrics © Kerrion Publishing, Colpix Music Inc., Lilly Mack Publishing, Emi Christian Music Pub Obo Lilly Mack Publishing

https://youtu.be/f4l_MxTMq-4

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