Starving, Betrayed, and Still Arguing About Jonathan

January 8, 2023

A brutally honest day about being underweight, broke, and furious over the SSD disaster and Jonathan's inaction, with the page swinging between blame, forgiveness, Star Wars distraction, and the insistence that this circle of people cannot be trusted again.

6:30 AM

Hunger, Depression, Lost Data and Anger at Friends

6:30 a.m.

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6:45 AM

Blaming Jonathan for Years of Neglect

6:45 a.m.

That being said, I'm generally very patient.

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6:45 AM (b)

Low Weight, No Food and Anger at a Supposed Friend

6:45 a.m. (b)

6:45 AM (c)

Choosing Not to Block Someone Despite Serious Disappointment

6:45 a.m. (c)

I'm not going to unfriend you or block you, because my standards are a bit higher and are unfair to most people.

As you have been prompt to respond. I will tolerate you. As you seem at least cooperative.

7:00 AM

Expecting to Remember a Friend as Someone Who Betrayed Me

7:00 a.m.

8:45 AM

Playing Battlefront and Forgiving Jonathan

8:30 a.m.

I'm playing Star Wars Battlefront.

By myself.

Skirmish is fun.

I forgive my █████████ Jonathan.

He's my favourite person.

These things happen.

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We should be positive. Stay cool. Things will most likely work out.

10:30 AM

Losing Because My Team Keeps Feeding

10:15 a.m.

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Story of my life

My n00b team feeds

11:15 AM

Finding It Harder to Attack the Rebels

11:00 a.m.

Whatever

It's pretty hard to win this for some reason

To attack the rebels is slightly harder

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11:15 AM (b)

A Brief Laugh

11:00 a.m. (b)

Hehe

11:15 AM (c)

Starving, Waiting for Data and Wanting Jonathan to Leave

11:15 a.m.

I gotta get my breakfast and lunch.

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There's been a real degradation now, and it seems to be the only thing I talk about.

It's not good to work with or depend on or eat food by mum. It tastes horrible. I have a totally different diet.

But I don't really know.

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11:15 AM (d)

Losing Respect for Jonathan, Jacques and David

11:15 a.m. (b)

12:30 PM

A Dying Phone, Data-Recovery Costs and Anger at Inaction

12:15 p.m.

My Samsung phone seems to die on 3%. I shouldn't use it as much.

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But whatever

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That's why I'm in a foul mood now

To match my language

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I think my thoughts are pretty honest

But shouldn't mean everything

I guess that he's made a serious mistake but probably accepts this

Likely will be the last time

I don't need pr, for what? I'm not a tech firm. I just wanted help getting this stuff done.

It's disgusting

But I'm being honest, and I think I'll keep being patient. No point me removing.

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12:30 PM (b)

Separating Jonathan From the Current Data-Recovery Problem

12:30 p.m.

Jonathan Hirshon had nothing to do with this.

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I shouldn't hate on that guy as well.

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I guess that I should be patient.

This ███████ Shanika will likely talk to Jagath who most likely can get this data recovered with his people at Sumathi IT.

12:30 PM (c)

Defending Daminda and Blaming a Defective Kingston SSD

12:30 p.m. (b)

You can't really sue Daminda Niroshana because the guy did his job which he was paid to do: recover the data.

The issue is this Kingston ssd was defective. We should have bought a Samsung. Most likely even Barclay's computer shop isn't also guilty. It's hard to detect if a ssd works.

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12:45 PM

Winning Battlefront on Hard Mode While Struggling With an SSD Setback

12:30 p.m. (c)

I tried to win Star Wars Battlefront skirmish Walker assault on Jundland Wastes, as the Empire, failed like 3 to 5 times on Hard mode. It really sucks.

Versus bots

There's an even harder difficulty

Gotta Google and see how to do it.

I think playing Boba Fett only is an answer.

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I'll be patient.

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12:45 PM (b)

Saying a Shared Video Is Just What I Need

12:45 p.m.

Just what I need!

https://youtu.be/7LwLtDUUHj4

1:15 PM

Blaming Stupid Bot Teammates

1:00 p.m.

Even though they're bots

They're really stupid bot teammates

Who f*** it up for me all the time

2:00 PM

Saying the Bots Do Nothing

1:45 p.m.

These bots don't seem to do anything

2:00 PM (b)

Depression, Hunger and Avoiding My Sister’s Birthday Party

2:00 p.m.

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I couldn't win this Walker assault on hard mode for some reason.

I should ask them to send food up for me.

I seem to be fine.

I'll play this on easy I guess and win.

It can't be that I'm making a mistake, it must be that the team is nerfed or at a disadvantage against the enemy team who are a better ai or something.

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2:15 PM

Attending Lehara’s Birthday Because She Attended Mine

2:15 p.m.

I'm going to be nice enough to attend my sister Lehara's ████████ this time because she attended my birthday dinner.

4:15 PM

A Family Birthday, Mirtazapine and Feeling Worn Down

4:00 p.m.

I saw some family and a few friends for my sister Lehara's birthday lunch.

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4:15 PM (b)

Giving Up and Asking Someone to Leave

4:15 p.m.

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4:15 PM (c)

Asking Him to Go

4:15 p.m. (b)

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4:30 PM

Asking What Hirshon Has Done for Two Years

4:30 p.m.

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4:45 PM

Deciding He Is Alright

4:45 p.m.

Okay jeez.

He's alright

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4:45 PM (b)

Posting a Smiley Face

4:45 p.m. (b)

: )

4:45 PM (c)

A Possibly Copied Hard Drive, Distrust of Jagath and Demanding Leadership

4:45 p.m. (c)

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So what?

I don't think anything was ever kept secret.

There's nothing sensitive on it

It seems like a bad idea to even contact this Chadu to recover data. Jagath told me to visit his Sumathi IT and check with Chadu to get it done. Sounds like a very bad idea.

5:30 PM

Winning Hard Mode and Feeling Glad Jonathan Stayed

5:15 p.m.

I won! Hard mode. I can't try Master difficulty because I suck at video games. But this was kind of fun...

I like to challenge myself.

I spoke to Seshi who is going to Melbourne from Sydney. He can check there. Apparently the prices are better at Melbourne.

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I think I've got a very good boiling point.

Jonathan Hirshon is pretty patient..

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I'm very happy Hirshon is staying. He's a brave, tough and very clever person.

Like Donkey was to Shrek.

5:45 PM

Dhaka Gets a Metro While Colombo Remains on Tuk-Tuks

Dhaka Goes Metro, Colombo Stuck On Tuk-Tuk

https://www.colombotelegraph.com/index.php/dhaka-goes-metro-colombo-stuck-on-tuk-tuk/

6:00 PM

Recovering Curriculum Books While Waiting for a Laptop

6:00 p.m.

I don't know what to do until mid February.

I should visit Sumathi IT and see if this data can indeed be recovered.

I reckon it's still there. Even the hdd is a machine. It works based on science..

Daminda can also do it for Rs 30 to 40,000.

It's worth mentioning him as helpful. It's a big deal to make sure it works.

There are syllabus books I need on my hard drive to write our school curriculum.

6:00 PM (b)

Avoiding Rallies and Using Electronics to Reduce Assassination Risk

6:00 p.m. (b)

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6:00 PM (c)

Data Recovery, Buddhist Reform and Regulated Vice Industries

6:00 p.m. (c)

So tomorrow, get back to trying to recover the data, wipe the faulty ssd, then, get a new ssd, preferably a Samsung ssd, and then, get back to writing these strategies for Sri Lanka.

It's interesting.

See, I never wrote Sigiriya Rock Fortress (casino) or Sovereign Wealth Fund, or SLT monopoly or Bank of Sri Lanka, I just think that way. Because it's so strategic. It's just the natural way to run a country

I did raise this issue of Mahayana and Theravada, with Jagath uncle. He asked if I want money or morality. I told him the mind, as he meant the brains.

But really...

Oh s***.

My battery's at 3% now.

People have

I mean, we have great propaganda

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Not like Thailand, or Singapore...

No.

We want to just manage these businesses correctly, reduce the social harm and earn returns to invest in our country.

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That stops many problems for us.

Yes, we want to be richer than Japan and Singapore

7:30 PM

Sri Lanka’s Debt, Global Leadership and Recovering the Strategy Data

7:30 p.m.

I don't play video games now. I don't enjoy them as much. I hate Call of Duty for instance. I tried playing Black Ops 3, but I didn't enjoy it.

I read about Sri Lanka's private creditors causing problems issue on The Guardian. I think Larry Fink over at BlackRock. They own a lot of our debt. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

Even people with big degrees often don't know how countries are run or how the economy works or how to lead.

Just because I have a degree, doesn't mean anything. It doesn't mean, I'm an expert in my field, just because I'm qualified. Or that I know how to lead. Or mislead.

There will be monumental changes if we win the elections.

Big.

Very big.

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Just kidding.

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Which is how I often talk.

And

Yeah, fine, I'm not a good person.

But so what?

Who cares?

I'm not killing anyone or stealing anything.

And what matters is that people get all the information they need.

I think Larry, Dave and Lloyd, I will likely make use of, with my Bank of Sri Lanka.

They just have to bet in this.

I guess, $20b.

It would have been much wiser than to do business with Mahinda Rajapaksa.

The folly of our Sri Lankan people is that we respect people who are successful, and we forget then, that they are only successful in a third world country, because they most likely used third world tactics, such as bribery or corruption or uncompetitive practices.

The products and services and expertise or the quality of those products, is often very low, and they can't compete.

My work for instance, is international.

But I never commercialize and earn off this. Because I sort of enjoy it.

Later maybe

I think being cash strapped, we are a bit frugal, we should get this laptop fixed temporarily and also recover the data.

Maybe get a Samsung ssd, not a Kingston, which is prone to failing. Many YouTube videos, I counted 2, they show that Kingston ssd isn't good. They recommend Samsung.

Things will work out

Things are working out

I think so

Running for elections will be very difficult

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That is why, that whole parliament, MPs, for interfacing strategy, will work wonders for us as we can use that to enter people to good, high skill jobs.

I think regarding our debt. It's not correct to just cut China out, because of a debt trap. See, they built a port. You can see it. They did that. I think that deserves respect. Although, I don't like the terms or strategy for it. I think Rajapaksa's failure in approach was how he never wanted people to work, he never inspired them like I do. With me, it's not just me, it's this big team, it's this inclusiveness, this idea, yeah, you can start up, we'll help, here's our state monopoly resources, we know what we're doing. That has this amazing effect of mobilising and drawing large numbers of people to really engage productively as they have a fair, real and valuable chance to make it.

Rajapaksa, Sirisena, Premadasa's son Sajith, although Premadasa partly did, Dhammika Perera, they don't do that. They want to be the boss, they want to control an oligarchy, which demoralizes everyone as it's the whole "this is Sri Lanka cult" rhetoric which people are all sick and tired of. I never do that. All our business is open, and we give everyone opportunities to thrive.

7:45 PM

Selling Transparency, Work Ethic and Ruthlessness as Political Strengths

7:30 p.m. (b)

I think many people want to partner our government openly as they respect us for what we're doing.

Everyone loves how transparent we are.

Whenever you mention me, always bring up, "transparency".

Say, "yeah sure, Lehan's Americanized, he's socially liberal, but he's very, very perfectly transparent. We need transparency to combat and eradicate corruption. This is why Transparency International publish the corruption perception index."

7:45 PM (b)

Defending State Control of Sex Work and Drugs Through Better Policing

7:45 p.m.

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"But has he really?"

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"Shouldn't our people have great policing that's well funded?"

"Have you seen police dispatch times under Lehan, Jesus f***ing Christ, faster than a Pizza Hut delivery order now!"

8:00 PM

Offering Chandran Tourism and Wanting Tarantino’s Tenth Film in Sri Lanka

8:00 p.m.

I'm exhausted.

Umm that's enough for today.

I'll see you next week.

Just joking. No, remember with me, it's often, see you next month?

Hehe

I saw this Chandran Rutnam's daughter Channel, whose name isn't spelled correctly. She has a son called William, and is married to a William. I asked if she saw Westworld, she's meaning to see it. William. I like that guy. He was the air force admiral or Marshall or something in Top Gun Maverick.

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However that █████████ likes Stephen Spielberg, Francis Ford Coppola, George Lucas, those people.

I only seem to like Quentin Tarantino.

I'm just that way.

And I want that 10th movie shot exclusively in Sri Lanka.

8:00 PM (b)

Putting Sandberg in Charge and Taking Credit for Her Success

8:00 p.m. (b)

I think that the average income here will really balloon up unlike any other nation.

We have a good team to manage us.

I think Sandberg's probably the perfect leader

I'll just be collecting all the credit for her outstanding achievements.

And wishing, Gee, I wish she sat for my exams, or something

8:00 PM (c)

Calculating Per-Person Income From a $200 Billion GDP

8:00 p.m. (c)

If GDP goes up to $200b,

Then with 23m,

That is $8,695 per person...

We will strive to do better..

9:15 PM

Taking a Shower and Watching Porn

9:15 p.m.

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10:15 PM

Quoting “Jenny From the Block”

10:00 p.m.

I'm still

Jenny from the block

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10:30 PM

Matt Monro’s “From Russia With Love”

10:15 p.m.

Matt Monro -- From Russia with Love

https://youtu.be/Lcdmq07u2T8

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10:45 PM

Posting a Smiley Face

10:45 p.m.

: )

11:00 PM

Cable’s 2030 Presidential Plan and a White Russian Coincidence

11:00 p.m.

Cable █████████ says he can run for President in 2030 after my 2025 term...

At 49:45 timestamp:

Jeny makes a "White Russian" cocktail

I swear to G-d

12:45 AM

Depression, Security Worries and Rejecting Buddhism While Taking Mirtazapine

12:45 a.m.

1:15 AM

Replacing Public Theravada With Mahayana While Keeping Monastic Tradition

1:00 a.m.

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I think separating the monks from the ordinary people is best. There's a lot of bleeding. We also have a lot of emotional hygiene issues.

I'm also very keen on providing a Mahayana interpretation to the public. Unless they wish to deep dive. Then Theravada is okay to teach. I find it's confusing for most.

We can't have that.

Jagath uncle posed it as do you want money or intellect. I think that they're not options you can pick. But I see how he reduced those two options, the gelatin in his truth does not wobble. As you see his point of view.

1:15 AM (b)