Exhaustion Took the Wheel and I Barely Managed to Start Anything

February 24, 2020

Exhaustion dominated from the first hours, and even when I kept working, watching, planning, and coping, the real shape of the day was how little energy I had for anything at all.

11:45 AM

Mon 24 Feb

11:45 a.m.

I got up. I'm exhausted. I'll get some food soon. I'm feeling drained in bed.

12:00 p.m.

This Mirtazapine is pretty strong. I don't even drive much. I'll need to brush my teeth and get food. I want tea, or coffee*.

12:30 p.m.

I'm exhausted. Stuck in bed. I need to get moving. I'm calling Commercial Bank's Kaushal Perera and also Chamath Malinga at Union Bank. They must be away for lunch or something.

4:00 p.m.

I made a lot of calls. I do a lot of work.

5:30 p.m.

I'm tired now. I'm learning from Chris Voss on negotiating. I'm learning how to talk to people. One of my dirty tricks is to gift 0.50% of our non voting preferential shares to famous people like Thilanga uncle or Sohli Captain or Ashok Pathirage uncle and then when we're talking to the customers -- we say we're their cyber security business. Although they haven't accepted such a proposal.

Of course, as long as I own 90%, i don't care about 10% of our equity, plus i don't suffer any problems because class A ordinary voting shares carry all the board voting power i need. I'm secure no matter what. I want to gift 1% to David Rubenstein's Carlyle Group, 1% to The Vanguard Group and maybe 1% to Laurence Fink lead Black Rock.

It's enough for my defence business. I have to think long term. If I get into contact with Jeff Bezos, I'll definitely issue 1% to Amazon. This just gives me a lot of return value. I get to use his name. I get access to the AI and machine learning and AWS or whatever Amazon does.

5:45 p.m.

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We better find people we can trust to issue shares to. We can redeem and re issue every year as a sort of dividend similar to Royal Dutch Shell and their redeemable Sterling Shares. This gives me peace of mind and power over the business no matter what. It's about our shared mutual interests.

6:00 p.m.

I'm scratching my head about the Dialog Axiata PLC deal and also Axiata. It's like $60 -70mn bucks. I can't really trust Thilanga uncle, but I'll see if he can support as the technology minister. I'll tell him I'll invest 25% into his politics and Jagath uncle's Buddhism. Just to motivate them. I can always use support, it's a big undertaking.

8:30 p.m.

I'm watching Mike Pompeo on The Economic Club of Washington DC. I'll watch Laurence Fink next, maybe Stephen Schwarzman and then do some jogging on the elliptical machine and then call it a night.

8:45 p.m.

I think Nirvana is like the ultimate kenjataimu. I want to be Buddha one day. I'll do my service and help my people and then try to be Buddha because I then won't have any attachment or clinging to do anything more. I ate some spicy tuna something something from the Japanese restaurant Kuuraku at Park Street Mews.

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