Anger at Iran, Longing for America, and Cigarettes at Dawn
January 14, 2023
A feverish overnight page about Iran, Biden's weakness, wanting out of Sri Lanka, medication dependence, and the urge to replace the whole culture, before the night softens into Emmanuelle, cigarettes, and one more plan to buy the Inspiron and move forward.
Condemning Iran and Biden’s Approach Toward It
12:45 a.m.
Jeez.
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I only like Trump cause he dealt with them
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Biden's the most
I dunno
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That's it.
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I can't believe it.
Most people I know only support him cause they're Democrats
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Wanting to Live Freely as My True Self
12:45 a.m. (c)
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Rejecting a Sri Lankan Identity and Wanting to Move to America
3:15 a.m.
I'm wondering stuff to my self about my strategy for Sri Lanka.
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I don't even see myself as a Sri Lankan. I see myself only as an American. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████
I want to go to America.
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Wanting to Leave Sri Lanka and Let It Face Its Choices
3:30 a.m.
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Quoting an Emmanuelle Lyric About Haunting Memories
5:45 a.m.
Echo in the night, I found the light, Emmanuelle.
Memories that haunt my brain.
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Iran, Russia and Jonathan Hirshon’s Embassy Order
9:30 p.m. (c)
My employer Hirshon.
He told me to do it.
And anyway
Maybe Iran has more things to worry about
People are changing Death to Khamenei now
Like they said Death to the Shah previously
And Death to America and Israel in their Iran Parliament
Hehehe f***ing █████████ country lol
I actually think Putin or Russia at least wants some Ukraine land for resources
Iran wants to blow up Israel for religion, for nothing...
Which is a whole other problem
Jonathan’s Embassy Orders and Claimed Intellectual Leadership
9:45 p.m.
I remember my conversation with my superior:
Jonathan ███████
When he was ordering me to close the █████████ Embassy.
The same way, I told him, who's big, you or me, me right? I'm BD1 and you are SWD.
He said, he has 165 IQ and I must follow his intellectual leadership.
Can't argue with that.
Even the whole Iran oil thing, he was the one who told me to hand it over to Saudi Arabia
Giving Kanchana Ratwatte Multiple Finance Roles
11:00 p.m. (b)
I have appointed several key people to multiple important roles because that authority helps fulfil more
I'm appointing Kanchana Ratwatte to be justice of finance in addition to deputy minister for finance and deputy chairman for bank of Sri Lanka.
Jim can run it..
Data-Theft Anxiety, Hunger and Losing Trust in Jonathan Hirshon
Sunday, January 15th.
12:00 a.m.
I had minor anxiety about data theft. But it's residual, and because we narrowed down, whose responsible or likely to have done it, we shouldn't worry.
I'm starving. I don't get enough food or calories. I feel disrespected, hurt and betrayed by my friends, especially Hirshon and Jacques. I think I'm getting less than 1,500 calories for past few months. My mum is uneducated. It's fair that Sri Lanka's paying badly and losing so much for all of this because we believe the people are responsible. But I'm still angry that nothing was done to help me directly.
We should prioritize the monetized wordpress blog as soon as we can, so this isn't any longer a serious, life threatening issue. I think I only lost respect for Jonathan, and I'm prepared to lose him citing this failure or inaction or refusal to intervene successfully.
I saw some good ████. I'm on 45mg of Mirtazapine. I am actively suffering from severe depression and am not in a good frame of mind. I am thinking of removing Jonathan to settle this active dispute as I believe it's going to help me move forward.
Iran Fears, Political Suspicions and the Food Dictator Story
1:00 a.m.
My phone battery dies or drains fast like the balls of that man who killed Thomas Shelby's Grace, not ███████████, as he said so as he tortured him.
I think the whole Iran phobia or Isis phobia or this Khamenei or ██████████phobia has happened with these Air Force Vice Marshall showing up. I think ████████████████████'s a real loser. He's got in with the Rajapaksa SLPP majority MPs in parliament. I think Anura should have won a few more seats or votes. I think even that other fellow, only got SLFP votes. All incapable pig fodder. Basically s*** for the pigs.
█████ has killed 1,000s of people. So it comes as no surprise he killed those Easter Sunday Mass Terror attack victims. Although ████████ was most of all responsible. It's almost guaranteed █████ was alert and helped make sure it happened. These weasels are very low quality. I'm angry at the people who are now very angry as well, and are looking for better leaders who are honest.
I think █████ may have with █████████ given a contract on me to this Air Force loser. But we still have more power than them all put together.
Nobody will show up to ███████████ funeral or even visit █████. Those people hold no respect or regard amongst our people.
It's unlikely they can get me. But I do imagine ████ is keen. Because they're terrorists and that's their operating strategy.
I think as a deflection or reflex strategy, I've starting with that Vice Air Marshall, I've begun this whole "The Food Dictator presents the Hirshon SWD" story. I hear that's his new designation in Academia masonic lodge. Not ig or inner guard, but swd.
He tells us:
I've created a monster
'Cause nobody wants to see Marshall no more
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I think it's absurd. But I'm scared. I think there have been repeat stories on BBC on Iran. I even saw this British Iranian tried to escape, but was denied. It's disgusting and frustrating and very frightening.
I'm going to get some data recovery attempt made on Monday. Chadu is my family. It's fine. We should be okay.
I think that we will be fine with family betting business. The 35% monopoly, will just get us the very expensive broadcasting feed correctly. We also depend on branding. If open market, with Bet365, Sporting Star wouldn't survive because they're better branded and established. This is a good way forward. Yes we allow open competition and entry. But people will always bet with our family franchise because they identify all the progress we offer and associate with Sporting Star or Sumathipala family. They all (public) think I'm Lehan Sumathipala Edirisinghe.
Yeah we can deal with Denise Coates who will be happy with this formal monopoly that we give over for her. Although, we own it, as government, she will be the operator or given an exclusive charter and charged with this as a token to my respect for the British people for my life, education and for helping me so much. We will deepen ties with the UK.
By mid February we will get this new laptop.
I think a Dell Inspiron 7620 is ideal. As I am a heavy downloader and computer user. I work like 6 hours a day at least on my computer. I think often 10 hours. Sometimes 15 hours or 16 like Lal uncle.
The 7000 series is their top of the line. In all honesty, I can buy a 3000 series Precision or even a 5000 series. But i don't like the feel of them. I don't like a Alienware in plastic. With a rubber palm rest area. I never liked plastic or rubber. : ) I think I prefer metal, aluminium.
Even the Macbook Air M1 is great. Can't fault it. Beautiful device. But Inspiron 7620 appears a more all purpose machine that's reliable. Better processor, 3k display, larger size, can play games, work faster, etc. It's a very safe pick. We can raise funds for sales and stuff. No biggie.
I'm going to sleep soon.
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