One Final SIERRA Push Before Dawn

Sat 18 Jan

3:15 a.m.

I'm thinking it's a good idea to use Sumathi Info Tech to market Sierra to enterprise customers. We're virtually unknown and we've been targeted, attacked and I think blacklisted due to personal opinions of ██████████████████ at Union Bank (resigned) and NDB. It's not a big deal. But it's clever to use SIT to tackle these 2 and also NTB and People's Bank.

Dialog we may be able to protect by ourselves. But it's too much risk. I don't know Ruchira Yasaratne so well. That Sierra project probably won't work. This is because their CTO Pradeep most likely gave an instruction to not commit or do a conditional POC. It's likely bullshit. They're likely to be doing it to get a free service.

Still, I don't know for sure. It's hard to judge or perceive their true motives. For all I know, they may be being honest. I'll have to tell the story it's a pen test and I have to pay $10,000 for 150 hours of gruelling manual penetration testing to our expert security researchers who protected Telefonica O2, Etisalat and Saudi Telecom. I can use SIT's people to try persuade Dialog Axiata to pay for this. It's always generally good to consolidate with bigger companies like SIT.

The reason we got big is because we pay per project approved and we just appointed account managers to all 23 enterprise customers. So, we got 23 account managers. We got about 10 IT guys who can handle technical requirements who need work. It's how it happened.

3:30 a.m.

SIT isn't 100% trustworthy. They've dodged calls in the past. It's a tricky one. But it's better than nothing. Our company just needs good relationships, to close deals and revenue. We'll just use them.

I don't have a good opinion of Lasantha, the guy's not a good guy, he wants to fight. I don't think it's wise to have drama. I think it's better if it's just a one sided drama from him. We anyway do business with the institution. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████It's the way it is. ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████There's always been plenty of people like him.

█████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████. But I like defence. I think no matter what, some people will just always be jealous of me and hate me. It's the way it is.

Indrajith knows SLT group CIO Saman Perera. We can try to get a presentation done. I think he knows Rajeev at NDB, somebody at People's Bank, Sampath Bank's people, etc. I think everyone. They're the ones who work with them usually. I should use them. It's better than working with JIT or CIT as it's a family owned business. I think I need to step on the gas before SAT or other competitors become a problem.

I'm under stress, and so, despite Mirtazapine, I'm struggling to sleep at night. I think it's going to improve. This is temporary. I also was thinking according to Buddhism, I should show compassion to people. I don't think it's worth hating anybody. People hate me because I'm working, doing things and trying to solve problems.

3:45 a.m.

I think the anxiety woke me up. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

4:00 a.m.

I dunno. There's probably problems in every country. I think I learned. That's the important thing. Plus, I'm lucky I have people to work with on enterprise customers. This is a great way to get into the customers.

4:45 a.m.

I'm glad that I can write about my suffering over here on Facebook. I think I'll be okay. I have a lot of stuff and people on my side. I read about Othello's tragedy. There's drama. I need to just be wise and show compassion to everyone.

5:15 a.m.

I was thinking about how painful killing cows is. It's very painful. I hate the betrayal involved. ████████████I hate how cruel the world is. I still eat beef. I tell myself this is the world. I feel sad about how Freemasons (like me) and Jews were murdered in WW2. It's a very cruel world.

5:30 a.m.

I often think about my dad helping our military. I hate violence and deaths. It's disgusting.████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

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6:00 a.m.

I'm excited to get my first deal done. I'm impatient. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ This is key. I'm really sleepy or just tired. I struggle with sleep. I just get flashbacks and stuff all the time when stressed. It's a nightmare.

6:15 a.m.

I'm looking forward to getting business done with the banks. I started approaching Ashok Pathirage uncle. I hope it works on NDB. I think it's sad the place is not straightforward, but I'll just have to tolerate. There's no rule of law.

6:30 a.m.

I'm feeling sick. I have a slight cold developing. I was thinking of discontinuing relations with █████████████████████████████████████████. The reason is because I don't trust them. Raja uncle says one thing, but does something else.

He was told about the People's Bank attack. He then proceeded to be friends with ████████. It seems like it's a joke to him. I don't see how they can remain friends. The way I deal with it is I just keep them as friends on Facebook but on the Restricted List.

Why should I tolerate people like that?█████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ They're Jagath uncle's friends. I dunno. Maybe, it's just meant to be that we end friendships. He's friends with Waruna and Sriyani aunt.█████████████████████

7:00 a.m.

For all I know, their approach makes sense. I gotta be tactful. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████Why be friends with people who stole money from us? I hate people like that. I don't want them around. There's no telling when you can get lied to.

I sense that it's better to be friendly with Sriyani aunt or Waruna cousin, even just for face value. I don't know.██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

7:30 a.m.

I can't know for sure. I think I'll give them the benefit of doubt. I think I'll be okay. I was thinking about animal slaughter and karma and being reincarnated. I'm scared of it. ███████████████████████████ I don't agree with Christians that animals don't have a spirit.

I think all animals have a spirit or Buddha nature. It's true. I've seen tamed pet alligators. I hate myself for eating meat. I need to justify by saying that anyway there's an animal cost to meat or plant foods. It's just the way it is.

8:00 a.m.

I'm pretty tired. I feel sick. I'm going to go on an electronic Sabbath soon████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

8:30 a.m.

███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ I'm watching Boardwalk Empire. I'm thinking of trying to use Jit somehow. I dunno. I'm pretty Machiavellian.

1:00 p.m.

I'm getting hungry. I'm so sleepy and drowsy today. I wonder what's up.

1:30 p.m.

I think I got the flu -- except it's a flu without the cold symptoms. It's just tiredness, somnolence, drowsiness, etc. I'm watching Boardwalk Empire--I f***ing love this show!

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I miss Valerie

Valerie, call on me

Call on me, Valerie

Sun 19 Jan

Exhibit 7. It's a wonderful life!

I loved The Sopranos. It was far better than that f*** Game of Thrones except when we saw that ██████████████████████ -- who showed up. Sopranos is better than anything else. I hated Breaking Bad. I think Boardwalk Empire is pretty good, it's a bit better than Peaky Blinders.

Sopranos is tied with Boardwalk Empire. I don't think Killing Eve or any other show has as much lasting impact. The two toppers, and I think Sopranos is number 1 and not Boardwalk Empire, they're number one because they're just the honest to G-d truth about the mob life.

I think Billions is another genre, but that's great. It's ahead of The Apprentice. I dunno, maybe The Apprentice is tied, out of respect for Donald Trump. Obviously, The Godfather is my favourite movie and not IMDB's number one Shawshank Redemption where they crawl through s***. What the f*** was wrong with those ███████?

Omg I can't believe I went a full 26 years not knowing this‼️😲🙃♥️🥇🌄 animals can change colour! But it doesn't matter if you're black or white because we're not racist of course.