Insomnia, Deal Schemes, and a Night Spiral I Couldn't Stop

January 26, 2020

Insomnia opened the door to deal schemes, night spirals, and sabotage thinking, with the whole day shaped by overthinking and an inability to switch off.

9:00 AM

Yuck, very evil people..

9:00 AM (b)

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9:00 AM (c)

G-d didn't want anyone living there

10:00 AM

Sun 26 Jan

10:00 a.m.

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[CYBERSPACE COMMAND]

"We can build this thing together, standing strong forever -- nothing's gonna stop us now."

https://youtu.be/3wxyN3z9PL4

10:00 AM (b)

Sun 26 Jan

10:00 a.m.

Exhibit 15. I just like these classics so much more than modern, new music

I hate most of the new songs playing on the radio. They all suck! I dunno. I hate them.

I dunno if the best days of my life are behind or ahead of me. But I do know I don't ever want to go back.

I want to move ahead, move forward and move on, over and onward to future.

https://youtu.be/P-WP6POdTgY

10:15 AM

Sun 26 Jan

10:00 a.m.

I was going to steal my sister Lehara's Nutella. But I don't like stealing. She was sleeping. So, I didn't. I'll get Maggi instant ramen noodles instead of pancakes and Nutella. I'm listening to music. I'll wait expectantly for my coffee and ramen. I woke up early in the morning. I had flashbacks.

I remembered my█████████████ breaking my elbow. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████. I'm going to watch Boardwalk Empire soon. I'll just relax. I have a meeting in the afternoon at 4 p.m. relating to the GOLF-PAPA-WHISKEY project.

10:15 a.m.

I spilled the Maggi ramen on my duvet quilt cover. They're going to clean it. I think wash and sun dry. What to do? I'm very careless. I don't know. I didn't like that duvet. It was old. I like white colour. I want a white bed sheet and duvet because I'm paranoid of (non existent) bed bugs, dog ticks or insects and I want to be able to catch them at night if needed -- so I like white.

10:30 a.m.

I was distracted writing, so, I spilled my plate's Maggi ramen unto my bedding. I need a white duvet. I like white colour. I hope I get 500 or 600 thread count Egyptian cotton or silk or something. I might as well because I pretty much live and sleep every day or night in my bed. I had an excellent, expensive 600 thread count duvet in England, which I left behind.

This Boardwalk Empire can get very boring. It's a s*** show. I'm glad it's coming to an end. Talk about product life cycle prolongation. Jesus friggin' Christ. This is really s***. It's the last 3 episodes at least. I know Nucky dies, but I want to understand why he dies.

10:45 a.m.

█████████████████████ I think I'll probably do it. I dunno. ████████████████████████████████ ███████████████████████████████████████████████████ I'll never get caught even if everyone knows I did it. I'm unsure whether to do it, but I'm actively thinking of it. It's been over 5 years or 8 years, I can't remember, when I last saw Shehan or Dasanthi, but █████████████████████ That's their sad problem. ██████████████████████████████████████

11:00 a.m.

████████████████████████████████████████ █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ This Boardwalk Empire is an okay show. It just got interesting. I like it now. I believe that if someone tries to murder me for no reason but maybe jealousy and ignorance, I have to defend myself. That's all.

It's just so cool how long term thinking works. ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████ There's nothing they can do or say to escape justice, ███████████████████████████████ ██████████████████████████ I have the first move, technological and information advantage.

12:00 p.m.

Nah. I think I can teach Shehan and Dasanthi. I can be the hero or something. ███████████████████████████████████████████ This is best because ultimately others don't have to be attacked. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

2:30 p.m.

I need to get lunch. I hate Sri Lankan food. I don't like it, it doesn't taste good. I only like tasty, mostly unhealthy, properly cooked foods. I have to train my domestic assistant Vasanthi to make things for me. I dunno. I'm lucky we've got help for household chores. Life sucked in university without any help.

I'm listening to Boardwalk Empire creator, whose opinions are interesting. I'll probably never really kill anybody. I've got too much of the Singaporean in me, well, besides the mandatory death penalty on drugs. I think I can sue people. That's my way of dealing with people, suing them to hell. Hitting them in the pocket.

I need to fix my country by myself. I'll make my money and then invest in the judiciary until cases are handled quickly. What this place needs is good management. I'm sure I'll get a lot of help from everywhere to fix this place. I need to go get lunch. I █████████████sister Lehara for not giving me her Nutella.█████

3:00 p.m.

I always share my food. I would've given█████████my Nutella. It's not fair. ████████████████ I need to remember not to share with my sister Lehara. Even if I write this, to her face I'll pretend like I'm her loving brother and friend like I do with everyone else. I ate chocolate ice cream. I had 3 servings. I'm watching Fear The Walking Dead.

I'm in my boxers all day. I went outside and walked around the garden and shamelessly said hi to the gardener Vellu "Putha", my dog Lucy, the security "Mahata Lamaya" (fat boy), and the maid "Vasanthee Duwa" (daughter). (I sound like a cult leader with the family titles, right?) I like my Calvin Klein boxers, I think ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

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3:15 p.m.

Oh look it's one of my favourite character in Fear The Walking Dead: Daniel Salazar. This guy is from the El Salvador junta death squad -- well developed character, love the backstory. The CIA trained them up to catch and kill commies. I love The Walking Dead. I prefer this to Boardwalk Empire. But I still like The Sopranos more than Walking Dead or Billions.

3:30 p.m.

Some dude's supposed to show up soon at 4 p.m. to discuss my ambitious GOLF-PAPA-WHISKEY project. I need to brush my teeth and put on some clothes to look presentable. I need to act like a decent, real human being in front of everyone.

10:15 p.m.

I woke up. My body was scratchy. I hope it's not diabetes. I'm going to try sleep again.

11:30 p.m.

I'm struggling to sleep. I'll just try to rest. I think I took my 30mg of Mirtazapine too early at 8 p.m. ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ Not overwhelming, but dangerously well justified. █████████████████████████████████████████

7:30 PM

Minura Tissera watch this https://youtu.be/Iy6rCp2rhZc.

7:45 PM

These Jews are very innovative and compassionate and help people

11:30 PM

Sun 26 Jan

11:30 p.m.

Exhibit 16. I love this: burnt ends from the point (deckle) of the brisket

https://youtu.be/PdxvUDR8wDs

11:30 PM (b)

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12:30 AM

Mon 27 Jan

12:15 a.m.

I'm struggling to sleep. I had a great meeting with Mahesh Jayaweera. I'm thinking of investing in the alcohol industry. There's money to be made. I only sip a bit of alcohol during infrequent, mostly monthly social events. I want to make some money.

We chatted. I think we need a liquor import permit. We may need Rs 300mn to invest. I'm a bit apprehensive. But if we can do it, we will. I love money. I'll try talk to Thilanga uncle about asking PM Mahinda Rajapaksa for a permit. There's a permit available for Rs 95mn from a Jaffna Tamil in trouble. The way I see it, even if we invest Rs 300mn, we stand to make Rs 2bn revenues, export potential and also about 10 to 30% profit -- which is about Rs 200 to 600mn profit per year.

The thing is my family's the █████ and nobody has as much political power. Rockland doesn't, after Chandrika got demolished, Harry Jayawardena and DCSL don't--even if I'm a small shareholder of Distilleries Company of Sri Lanka and we're █████████████████████████ assets which Lal uncle has to auction off, such as his 6 acres in Grandpass, to perhaps pay his Rs 1.5bn in debt to Hatton National Bank.

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████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ Okay, so, we needed a bonded warehouse to store liquor. I think we can rent Ravi Karunaratne's warehouse. I think there's 3,000 or even 4,000 liquor stores in Sri Lanka. I want to stock them all up. I estimate to earn Rs 2bn in revenues. I think I should cut some kind of Rajapaksa family deal with Thilanga uncle for the liquor import and even production permit because I obviously would like to export.

12:30 a.m.

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12:45 a.m.

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1:00 a.m.

I dunno. I also kind of genuinely feel sad for her. She's lost everything. █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ I need to be presented as the hero.█████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

I'm so nice to her when I meet though. Even Prasanga aunty is friendly to her face. I think it's funny. I need there to be bad people to point the finger and say, look at that ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████? ████████████████████████████████ █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

I forgive her. I'm watching Fear The Walking Dead. I had an Oreo. There's a cool Jewish character in Fear The Walking Dead. He has a nice M16 rifle with a bayonet. I'm hungry. I wish I had some good Campbell's Tomato Soup. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

3:00 a.m.

I'm watching Fear The Walking Dead. I love this show. It's even better than The Walking Dead, even without Madison and my favourite, Negan -- played really well by Jeffrey Dean Morgan! I love this story. My father used to tell me ghost stories before going to sleep. I still remember his stories. This scary story thing is tradition for me.

████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ Sigh. I dunno. I think it's great stress relief, █████████████████████████████████████████████████████ █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████. Anyway, I only like limited scary stuff. I don't generally like scary movies. Even my cousin Chadu hates scary movies.

The max I can do is The Walking Dead series. Even Hideo Kojima's Metal Gear Solid Snake 5: The Phantom Pain's ghosts was too much for me. When I saw the Skulls in MGSV, the cutscenes freaked me out. I somehow finished that game by myself. But it was frightening. I didn't like it. I only liked Quiet's█████████. :)

I'm hungry. I can't believe ████████████████████████████████████ don't have any tomato soup for me. What the f***, right? I dunno. I was looking through Tescos. They had good tomato soup. I should make and sell or import and sell in Sri Lanka. I get to do small things like that to make Sri Lanka look a bit more developed and like a first world country.

I don't personally believe England is a first world country. On one hand, I don't think America is a first world country because there's so many poor people, problems and dirty water. But at the same time, on the other hand, some parts of the US are the only first world nation in the world. It's what it is. I wish I had some tomato soup.

3:15 a.m.

████████████████████████████████████████ I had a good time. ███████████████████████████████████████ I really had a good time. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

I wonder what my new friend Lakshan Colonne has to say to me today afternoon. Or this afternoon*. He's a Freemason like me. He's apparently got 2 business propositions. His cousin Duminda Gunesekara married my aunt Anusha, had a daughter, my cousin Sackouni, and then fought with Thilanga uncle and I think had a scuffle involving█████████████████████████

I'm friendly with Sohli Captain now. ███████████████████████████████ He loves me. All the rich, powerful people love me. Anybody with a high IQ either love me or tolerate me like █████████ Even █████████ tolerates me. I love it. Everyone puts up with me. ████████████████████████. Hehehe I don't know what to say. I don't care, I just care about business.

Sohli is friendly with███████████████████████████████████████████ his dad██████████████████ MD of Chemical Industries Colombo or CIC. Obviously, I sadly shook Duminda's hand at Thilanga uncle's place before he got ██████████████████████soon thereafter. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████.

3:45 AM

Mon 27 Jan

3:30 a.m.

Vivian Balakrishnan and Tharman Shanmugaratnam ███████████. They all tolerate it. Iswaran is ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████. I hope I don't get Saddam Hussein's rap or his ████████ son's image. I've been pretty decent. I've never really done anything besides have some fun. I never acted out in real life.

I dunno what Lakshan Colonne wants.█████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ Jagath mami is okay, but Thilanga uncle's unpredictable. He's not strategic. ████████████████████

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Tharman ██████████████████████got a 2nd class at the LSE and got fined for releasing sensitive info. ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████ Hsien Loong fights his brother and sister like a kid. ███████████████████████████████ Everyone's got the downside. █████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

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Or keep him. Just do a serious penetration testing project with the CEO, COO in charge of everything and their VP IT ██████████████████ █████████████████████████ ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

3:45 a.m.

All the employees at the banks always apply to my company for jobs.████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ I love my job. My job is the best job ever. I think it's funny.

████████████████████████████████████████████████████. But it'll never happen in a million years because it's my money and I can do anything I like with my money (James or Kerry Packer).██████████████████████████████████████ I only share profit. I think for the public banks and SLT, ██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

4:00 a.m.

I'm getting tired. I'm sleepy. ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████. I think my dog Lucy was barking a few hours ago because ██████████████████████████████████████ ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

I think I'll be okay for a meeting in the afternoon. I'm curious to hear Lakshan Colonne's new plans. He's a nice guy. I think my mistake is I drink too much instant coffee. Plus I took my Mirtazapine too early. It f***ed it up. My feet were scratchy too. I hope I'm not diabetic or something. I'm going to eat something in the fridge, maybe a slice of cheese, watch Fear The Walking Dead, then rest some more.

I'm so glad my COO and CMO and CIO run the company. I don't really do any work. I just do the leadership thing, I just make decisions. I don't do any work. I'm so lucky I can free up time to meet people and stuff. I love it this way. I think I have another meeting in the afternoon with DFCC Bank people. █████████████████████ Oh well. ███████████I can just do it too. It's not a big deal.

4:15 p.m.

Jeez, I wish I had some Marmite. Yummy. I need some. I also need some good cheeses. I love cheese and nuts and brisket. I miss the good foods. I hate it here. I should like import good food or something. I need this place developing G-d ███████ damn it! I want a first world country.

5:00 a.m.

I'm gonna sleep a bit. I'm tired. I need to sleep lol. I think I fell asleep. I had a good night's sleep. I woke up at like 11 a.m. This is a total of close to 5 or 8 hour's rest.

12:00 p.m.

I had a late breakfast of Kadalla, some type of grain, bigger than green gram. I had it with Chinese chilli paste, coconut flakes and my mum's spicy tamarind brinjals with Maldivian sprat fish that I love.

My nose is slightly runny because it was too spicy for me. I'm watching Fear The Walking Dead and then quickly getting ready to receive and meet Lakshan Colonne. I can't eat spicy food. Even the spicy tamarind paste or Chinese chili paste was too much for me.

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12:15 p.m.

██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ She's so pretty. I like pretty girls. ███████████████████████████████████ I dunno. I just love it. ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

I think there's a power cut. I need to brush my teeth and get ready to meet Lakshan. I'm just relaxing for my big meet up tomorrow to discuss a POV with Dialog. I'm a bit stressed, but nothing too bad. I'll go talk to Thilanga uncle to see if we can pay the $10,000 for pen testing Dialog.

I'm unsure if we should pay for it because I don't know Dr Hans Wijayasuriya so well, I wouldn't f*** over people, but I dunno. We'll see. I'm having a good day. ███████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████

2:45 p.m.

Sohli Captain called me. He really likes me. I really like him. I love Parsis. I didn't know about them, but they're very cool people. They had to run from Iran because the ████████████████████████████████ for not converting. Sohli wanted to pay for 6 months subscription fee for my Freemasonry and to put me in Orion Lodge. I told his office, I'll pay for it.

3:45 p.m.

I'm going to just rest today. I'll call DFCC's person today. Then maybe I'll meet Lakshan Colonne. But I just want to rest today. I'm just tired. I think way too much. ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████ I'm so lucky and proud to be Sri Lankan because of Sohli Captain and the Parsis.

I was worried Abans Pestonjee ████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████buying McDonald's in Sri Lanka anymore. But now, I'm happy. I'm a very a simple person. I'm a very good person. ███████████████████████████████████

4:15 AM